open my eyes

 i was having a tarot card reading online, of course, my cards being read.  I'm not really a superstitious person, but i find joy in positive readings, makes me feel better that there's always an end on the bad days.

angel tarot reading, i took (i took a lot of others but lol, let's just mention this).  it says I'm losing the joy of spontaneity because of my need to control so my life can run according to plan.  i would say that this is true, i worry about the future a lot, and a lot of times, i forgot to enjoy what's in the present, what's in my hands.  

but now, i feel a little lighter at heart, probably because i know, everything that is meant to happen will fall into place.  Doctor said, our past, present and future align together and move simultaneously, with everything already happened at one point or another in a particular manner.

there are people i miss and tasks i need to complete, i don't know what my story's ending would be but i know i will try to make things happen and let them fall into place.