getaway

 hi, never knew i'd be back, even if it's just for a while.  

but you know what? feels good to be back, away from my new blog on Wordpress (well not so new now but still,,). here, there are no expectations or so what, i can write out what i feel here, without any worries since no one ever comes here.

this morning, i encountered a few difficulties on Wordpress.  I ACCIDENTALLY CHANGED THE THEME OF MY BLOG! and i don't know how to revert it back.  i get anxious when things get out of control, it feels like i couldn't even manage my own blog, let alone other stuff.  

the thing is, i don't think i was using any themes before that, or if i did, it was the default Hello World theme at 2017.  my mind is in chaos right now, i just, i just feel so incompetent.  if i know how to code, maybe things will be better...which i did but I'm still a very very new newbie.  yes.

how to do it... even the subscription box disappeared......how do people subscribe to me now?

and i was so worried about my blog i couldn't even concentrate in maths class... 

i don't like the current theme, i want my old blog back, it wasn't the best but still it was the best i could manage at that time, the best in my own way.  and now even the page width shifted into a narrower one, NO ONE LIKES NARROW PAGES!  I've been finding ways to change it but it's still fruitless, like I've watched tutorials on youtube and some websites but they were either all in 2018 or you have to upgrade your page to a business level.  

I'll probably go take a rest now, kinda what i do when i couldn't control stuff.  I'm so tired.

so much negativity...

anyways, if anyone happens to see this, and knows how to revert a Wordpress blog back to it's original state, please send help!!! I'm desperate now T.T